mcgonagollygee:

so obviously it’s always shitty when any of the ipre die but i wonder if there weren’t also certain combinations of people being dead that are just… 200% more awful

there’s a cycle where magnus and lup both die. and it’s like the energy has gone out of the entire group. taako always gets quieter and sharper when lup dies, but without magnus to rattle around the ship and distract everyone, his furious silence is deafening. barry doesn’t leave his room at all, and without lup or magnus to remind her there’s a world outside her journals, lucretia doesn’t either.

there’s one cycle where merle and davenport both die about halfway through and there’s just this horrible feeling of pseudo parental loss. barry takes it especially hard; he lost his father before he can remember and he just lost two more. the twins too – the others notice them getting even closer; they’re often joined at the hip, but now they’re rarely in different rooms.

or, magnus and lucretia die and the other five feel, suddenly, very old. the two of them are the “little siblings” of the crew. magnus is so big and lucretia so smart that it’s easy to forget they have twenty and twenty-two year old bodies respectively. even with the extra years they’ve been given, they’re still so young.

davenport and lucretia die and suddenly everyone’s twice as reckless. taako and merle die and the crew finds themselves humorless; it seems like there’s no one to laugh with or at. merle and barry die and the crew never realized how much of the good nature on the ship stemmed directly from them until then